live. laugh. love.

seriously... i cant remember a thing...

i forgot to meet jess for bfast.
i forgot my lunch.
i forgot to invoice a client.
i forgot what i was doing.
i forgot to email jeff back.
i forgot to put my time in.

sometimes i forget but then remember in time to save my butt...
like remembering to check my oil...
like remembering to set my alarm...
like remembering to call my grandma...
like remembering to pay my bills...

sometimes i forget all together...
like that i wasnt at work on monday and tuesday... sitting here trying to figure out why it looks like i didnt do a THING... maybe cuz i wasnt here... wow.
but more often its forgetting to do my chores... forgetting to eat... forgetting to get the mail...

sometimes i forget and im scared people think i forgot on purpose to get out of whatever it was...

i forgot to get christmas presents for everyone...

i forget who i told i would do what...

i forget to pay people money i owe them...

i forget to prepare for small group...

sometimes i forget because i am trying to remember too many things...
this kicks my butt at work... i try to do 9348570239857 things at a time... and then i end up forgetting half of them because im workin on the other half... and i try to write stuff down but i still forget to write everything down.

my life comes at my brain like stars flying past a space ship through the galaxy... like lightning flashing through a stormy sky... like filling a bucket with a firehose. seriously. as soon as i remember one thing, than the other thing that i just remembered a second ago is gone.

i sit down to have a quiet time and i cant even think one coherent thought... they are just like small stupid thoughts that float through my mind... and nothing relates to anything and i cant focus...

i guess i should start by going to bed on time and drinking enough water and taking my vitamins... but i forget to do all that too! :( GOSH!!!

i forgot all the other stuff i forgot... so im ending this and going to bed before i forget.