live. laugh. love.

things were getting to me.

"things". yes. its too much to explain.

i couldnt focus on school. i couldnt sleep.

i ran.

i got a ways away and i started walking. praying. thinking. crying.

i was on a country road. nothing really around, but a corn field on the right side and a field of wildflowers on the left.

i picked myself a flower.

it was yellow.

it was perfect.

i just stood there and looked at it.

thinking that in heaven there would be fields of wildflowers and me and Jesus would go running through them. picking millions. :) laughing.

so im carrying my flower. walking. praying. begging Jesus to join me. i need him so bad.

its hot. im sweating. my makeup is running on my face. my ankle is hurting.

and i look down and my flowers wilting. it doesnt stand up straight any more. its all bent over.

i was kinda frustrated that this flower wasnt as pretty as it was 7 minutes ago. whys it got to wilt so fast??

and jesus said...

"nina, you picked it. its hot out. as long as you are planted in my word you will be strong and beautiful. but the minute that you let yourself be "picked", you'll wilt faster than you can say jack robinson."

oh Jesus. let me stay planted and growing in you.

i just want to know you.